My Speech :
Woohoo!!
My God saves!!
Fell alot better.
Went to have my lunch just now, otw to teck whye i saw this old uncle "ah pek" :]
he was sitting under e void deck alone. I rmb he always say hi to me when i was young. erm.. when i was k1? everytime when he saw me, he always say "jin gao?"- very guai. nt golden dog.! lol
anw, cut e long story short.
An urge to buy coffee for that uncle. but when on my way home, he was not there. i guess he went home. So i guess i've to finish e awful "kopi-O" my self.
well, on the other hand this tell me that I shld even help ppl around me be it stanger or what so ever if nt it defeat e purpose of going mission trip.
It like u can't even help ppl in spore and u wana help ppl in other country? hm...
very unlikely..
well, God use small little incident to change ppl's mindset or perhaps encourage to do more righteous stuff.
I knew that God was with me and i did e right stuff :]
choices..
Be it N'lvl, I'm still gona go church and experience God next sat!
God, guide me..
Pastor Benjamin's sermon was impactful.
God's presence was awesome..
Define the word awesome.
www.dictionary.com
Awesome- very impressive:
For me, The word Awesome is more than just very impressive but the best!? i guess..?
I can't describe.
Anw,
It it just coincident Or God used a stranger and speak to me...?
Fast, Pray...
Fast, Faith, Hope... Trust..
Action...
WITH GOD ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE!? RIGHT!?
then here goes nothing..
Be it able to go or unable to go.. I'll still put my trust and praise u!
GRgh..
Alright, I shall develop tolerance for conflict.. I've been keeping Negative Words from people and It is now stuck to my mind..
It so hard to shake it off..
I dont wan't to go in to the state where I'll explode..
God, help me...
I'm certain that my God saves...
I didn't choose to become Christian for nothing and
get those "mean look" from my Relative for nothing..
I choose to stand for it..
Because.. I experience it myself..
some stuff are just indescribable...
I want a new guitar..
Think of it.. It a want and not a need..
I want a Bicycle.. so that I can chill myself..
But it a want not a need...
I wonder how i could honour my parents...
After that awful debate..
I want go cambodia... But it seems so impossible...
It don't even look possible...
But for some reason..
I feel that it possible for me to go...
Maybe it the gift of Discernment..
anw, I lied again..
I lied to my dad... I told him that there's no school today..
Because i was so tired, insomnia occur again...
tsk..
I don't know how should i elaborate...
No matter how hard i try to run.. I can't escape from my problem...
I can't sleep over it...
U know.. I just don't get the fact where some people could go around being bossy and judge peopel.. I can't stand it.. seriously..
in the first place.. who are u?
who are u to judge?
Are u that perfect?
U're still in your OWN WORLD..
c'mmon! slap yourself.. or go knock against the wall please..
U freaking attitude doesn't even give U that "perfect Image" of who u are...
argh....
Hatred is building up.....
I pray hard that tmr is gona be a good day for me..
please don't come show me your funny funny pattern...
Having all those negative thoughts on how I should have my revenge on you..
Wouldn't that make me an asshole...?
Gt back my prelim result. Overall, It wasn't that good, because i didn't take the prelim seriously :l because i was lagging behind with my Dnt coursework thingy.. well, I shall take this prelim result as a motivation to push me on! :D
I shall paste Notes on my wall soon! and motivations words too! like " I should be studying now!?" then paste on the wall or celling, so everytime when i feel like sleeping, I'll study! LOL.
But i don't think it'll work.. -.-" lol
But if i don't try out who knows whether it will work right?
I wana go mission trip! I've save up the money for Yi camp, so I'm gona save up for mission trip. I wana go cambodia!! yeah. But my mum Doesn't seems to look happy when i mention to her that it a church stuff as she thought it was school stuff and she was like totally agree?
But when she ask is it school?
I said church..
Then we went silent for a minute.. for Mj's death.
just kidding. just went silent for a few second.. lol
Guess I'm gona use my result to prove to my mum that I've work hard, so i can go missiontrip. Hope it wont be another disappointing one, I really want to mission trip.
Faith + No action = DEAD
So I'm gona study hard! and pull all my faith onto God and trust him in all ways!
I wana see life changed.
How cool is that.. money can't buy experience.
When people talk about money, They'll always feel scared, or infact - Sensitive?
So now everytime when I wana buy a stuff..
I must always think,
Whether is a NEED Or WANT.
If is WANT, I must resist the temptation of buying especially food!
A Need Or A Want..
Guide me, Tell me how should I spend my money wisely.!